“On The Run”

There comes a time in Life, or in a Relationship… where you debate certain decisions before actually making them, for the fact being that either decision can change your life. But what happens when you find yourself ridiculed by the fact that you know what decision you SHOULD make… but you feel as if there’s something missing, something that can possibly be hiding behind the OTHER decision. I’ve realized over the days that me and Jason are meant to be. Hell, we’ve even recon ciliated. But now that I know he’s the one… I’m just not ready for it yet. I’m not ready to commit to something that’s flawless, yet. I’m striving for more experience before I spend the rest of my life with him. I don’t know what’s gonna happen. I mean, here I am… finally over the whole Insecurity concept and finally SOCIAL, rather than Anti-Social. And I finally realize that Jason’s the one. All-in-All, this is PERFECT. Or so I thought. Something’s missing… it could be Experience, it could be chemistry… it could be anything. But it’s binding me down to the point where I have to choose whether or not I’m ready for Resplendence, or if I need to learn from my mistakes some more. I’ve realized that when this time comes in someone’s life… it’s not rather what you FEEL that you should rely on to make a decision, but more like what you KNOW. Because sometimes, it’s Knowledge that helps us make our decisions… it’s not always Emotions. Sure, Emotions lead us to the door, but Knowledge helps us understand WHAT’S behind the door… and deploys us to open the door. So, when it comes to making a Decision…. What the fuck brings us to making more than one?